Excruciating Suffering: A Personal Battle With the Mysterious Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome
It began on a gloomy Monday morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a educator, attempting to manage a new class, when a intense sensation bloomed behind my one eye. This was followed by rapid jolts, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As the school day progressed, the discomfort subsided and then returned with greater intensity. Four times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with worksheets and hurried to the school bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I took ibuprofen, but the agony remained unrelenting.
The attacks appeared frequently that autumn, and again in spring, soon forming an yearly cycle. September and October were the worst, then the late winter. I could anticipate the pattern: aura in the shower, early twinges on the commute, full-blown pain in class by 9.30am. In 2019, a doctor eventually sent me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.
Cluster headaches often begin with intense pain around a single eye that lasts for several hours.
Approximately one in 1,000 people are affected by the disorder, and men are more often affected. Attacks typically start with sudden, excruciating agony focused on one eye that peaks within a short time and continues for as long as three hours. Attacks come in clusters, daily or several times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or facial perspiration. I have an episodic type, which occurs in seasonal cycles; others have chronic cluster headaches, characterized by the lack of long symptom-free periods.
What connects patients is the severity. One study scored the pain at 9.7 out of 10, higher than broken bones or pancreatitis. Another discovered 64% of cluster headache patients experienced thoughts of self-harm amid attacks; the number dropped to four percent when they were pain-free.
One patient, in her seventies, a chronic sufferer from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her episodes began when she was two. “I would hurl myself on the ground and bang my head. That was put down to being a difficult child,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through her youth. Drinking in her adolescence, like several triggers, made things more intense. After drinking sherry at her graduation party, she recalls barely being able to see on the bus home.
Her family often mistook her episodes as intoxicated episodes. Support eventually came from her father and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after moving, but often concealed her condition. She was dismissed from one job, in part due to time off during episodes. Her definitive diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a specialist hospital.
Nevertheless, the failure to plan daily activities around unpredictable attacks took its effect. She particularly disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her children during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the small freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.
Headaches have been described throughout history. “The earliest account of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write authors in a publication on the topic. They attributed the ailment to an evil spirit who attacked his victims' heads.
Historical medical texts suggest bizarre remedies for what some experts would classify as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, migraine was recognised as a separate condition, with therapies including herbal concoctions to other, more folk remedies.
It was a European physician who provided the first comprehensive account of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very intense headache happening and vanishing daily at specific hours”.
Cluster headaches were only officially classified by international medical societies in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a problem with a major blood vessel which supplies blood to the head. Prominent experts in treating the condition note this.
In 1998, scientists released the findings of a research project for which they had triggered attacks in patients and observed the attacks in a imaging machine. The results, published in a major medical publication, showed activation of the a brain region, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a reduction when they recovered.
Despite such advances, identification remains slow. One man's symptoms began in 1986 and felt like “a modelling balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he underwent four operations before finally being correctly identified in 2014, after a doctor looked up his complaints.
Neurologists say wait times in diagnosis and treatment happen because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He proceeds by eliminating other common headache disorders, such as migraine, before diagnosing the disorder. A detailed patient history is essential: on which part of the head do signs occur? For how long? What season? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Specific characteristics such as redness, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help confirm cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to specialist centers. But many first go to A&E or are given inadequate therapies.
Dorothy Chapman, in her late seventies, has suffered from cluster headaches for the majority of her adult life, although she hasn't had an episode since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars pulled because dental professionals misunderstood her pain. She believes dentists still need greater education. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who responded. I remember calling a helpline during an attack in early 2021; a calm advisor guided them through oxygen treatment and drugs until the attack passed.
National guidance on treatment recommend that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a specific medication administered by injection. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic options include verapamil, which apparently helps manage the attacks of well-known people.
But leading neurologists believe the guidance need revising to reflect a more defined treatment pathway and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The length of the cycle dictates the treatment.” Short bouts with infrequent episodes are handled with abortive therapy only. Longer or more intense periods require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes combined with steroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an injection into the area of the head where the discomfort is that decreases nerve activity.
The national guidelines need updating to reflect a